I was talking to my sister this morning, and told her that I didn't remember ever having Mom just rub my back or go into our room at night and sit and talk to us. I see my grandson at 18 hug his Mom and he hugs us, no matter who is around. I watched my sisters' 23 year old son come home from work and lay on the couch where my sister was sitting with his head in her lap. She rubbed his head and patted him. Mom never did that with me. Then my sister told me that after I had quit school at 16 and pregnant, that Mom started hugging her and talking to her more. I think she felt quilty for taking me from Ohio to Utah and dumping me there to have a preemie baby that no one helped me with. I had just turned 17 and had a 4 1/2 pound baby that I took very good care of. No wonder my Mom felt quilty!! I am 55 years old and things still keep coming into my mind that I have to ask questions about. I think my question surprised my sister this morning, but she understood me. My father wouldn't even talk to me about the situation and they just sent me out there to be married among strangers. No wonder I am such a mess sometimes. Things keep working their way to the top. At least I can talk here.