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The minister is something we processed a long time ago and are maybe kind of "done" with in a way. So, it's not so much that he brought up something traumatic, really....I don't know. I really don't know.

I just wish we could have had the session, and had the safe feeling, without having to pick everything apart and analzye it. I kind of feel like part of what T was saying was "don't mistake these hugs for *real* caring". Ouch, that really, REALLY hurts.

It was so hard for me to get to the point where I felt really safe with T AND really believed that I mattered to him. It feels like it was all undone - in a session that I thought was going to be such a safe session!

I feel HORRIBLE right now. I can't imagine going back to T on Friday, but I know that's a long way off, and I might feel differently by then. I guess my feelings are just really hurt.