((((((jc)))))) no, he doesn't blame me... but my t definitely holds me accountable... he has me keep a chart... and give it to him each week... if i cut he makes me show him what i did... and he takes out his glasses and inspects it... to make sure (in his mind) that it isn't getting infected and that it doesn't need medical attention... we have a verbal safety contract... that he would like me to call before i Si... but if it's more then Si then i have to call him... he also had me set up a safety plan and it includes calling him before i follow through... and then their are several things to help me get grounded on the list and the last thing is to call him and let him know if i cut or not... the only reason this works is because i trust him... and know that he is safe... there have been a couple times he wouldn't let me leave until he was sure i was safe...and as much as i hate it... it does keep me safe most of the time... please take gentle care of yourself... and i am glad you only cut one time tonight...lyn