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I know I'm overreacting, but I can't get any perspective on it to see why I'm reacting the way I am. I have no idea. Which is why I'm typing this here - to see if someone can think through it with me.
I have NO DESIRE to call or e-mail or see him.
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((earthmama))
I don't believe you are overreacting, but reacting! You probably can't gain perspective because you are "in it," so to speak. I know for me, when I have a reaction like that it means that T pressed some serious buttons (and I am usually my child self in some way).
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He said something like "I ruined it". He DID ruin it.
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When have you felt like this before? I wonder if mentioning your previous counselor brought up some internalized shameful feelings about someone "ruining" something?
I am so sorry you are hurting like this right now and yeah--I think you should throw darts at his picture. These ruptures are difficult to work through but usually yield great treasure.
Take gentle care of yourself right now and get some rest.
