Thanks everyone. I had my first appointment with a psychologist today.
He also told me that adhd is a neurological disorder... but my neurologist at Duke said the psychologist was the one to make the diagnosis. I have epilepsy also and I have a very good neurologist. But my internet research says that is a mental illness and my neurologist said that neurologists are not experts with adhd. It's so confusing! I really don't care what they call it now, I'm so worn out.
I thought it would be several visits before I would be diagnosed, but the man I saw today believes I have a serious adhd problem and the thing now is to tackle all of the emotional issues and low self esteem I have been dealing with. The mental thing is undeniable.
My heart was pounding so hard when I got there this morning. But it turns out that seeing a psychologist was actually kind of fun in some ways, and the whole thing is so interesting. I had a captive audience- I like to talk. And I got to sit in a rocking chair, if you can imagine the fun I had with that.
While it is good to know what my problem is, now I have to figure out what in the world to do about it! Because I have my seizure disorder, medication is going to be tricky. It's possible I will be able to take Strattera. I have so many other issues to straighten out - like my house (it's a wreck)- and my job. It's going to be a long road.
Thanks again for the support. Hope I will learn enough through my experiences to maybe help someone else too.