i mostly noticed your great faith in our Lord Jesus Christ. its hard cuz ive been in a similar situation in my marriage & i would ask for advice from everyone i guess just to vent & trying to find someone with miracle advice. finally i just let go & prayed for my husband. i would drive myself crazy trying to fix him & threatening to leave or divorce. i know being a christian u take vows very seriously but the most common thread of everyones advice is that God doesnt want u to be so unhappy & in bondage to a miserable situation. in my situation im also an addict. im an alcoholic--if i take a drink i cant quit. i was sober from everything from 25-30 (im now 34) & during those 5 years was when i drove myself crazy trying to fix him. when i seriously lived for the Lord & let go & let God deal with him is when i actually had peace. as far as the meth goes its rampant where i live & ive watched my brother go on the meth binges & what it does. also with many others where i live. either dead or look like walking dead with no teeth & sunken in face like they are 80 instead of 45 or in jail. i think my brothers long stints in jail is whats kept him from looking like that---i think God puts him there cuz he has other plans for him. well as for us im 34 & hubby is 46 & together weve struggled with crack habit. i pray every day God helps us & gives us strength not to do it anymore--I know He is. we have a girl almost 11 & a girl almost a year old so our kids ages are similar. right now im realizing that im gonna have to say no even if my husband does not just like before only now im older a little more wiser & am a good mother to baby unlike with 10 year old when i was 23 & an alcoholic mess. it took me the whole year of 1999 to get off the booze. i had the 5 years of sobriety & then a couple of drinking relapses. havent drank since march of 07 but have still given in to the crack. your husband is still at that young age & its so hard to tell when he will take sobriety seriously. of course i know crackheads around here who are up there in age that still chase after the stuff. i will just pray 4 u & your family cuz its hard when you are outside on the internet & u dont actually know the person. i know from experience u have to wanna completely be serious about sobriety ditching old people places triggers. its not easy. like i read somewhere else theres alot more casualties of addiction than miracles. i know cuz where i live there have been soooo many deaths just in the past 5 years where people in the prime of their lives drank pill popped smoked whatever overdosed died in car wrecks being blown out of their mind all of them dead & such a waste. every time my brother goes to jail atleast 2 of his druggie buddies die. sorry i went off in this direction & that im just passionate about knowing what all this stuff does & also passionate about our Lord & the grace & mercy He has shown me & my brother & family thru all this. Praise God forever !!!