Thank-you, all of you.

ktgirl: I guess printing out this post might help. Even the idea of that terrifies me, but I suppose, yes, it would be easier. You are very very helpful and supportive. Thank-you.

reddevil: I think my therapist has noticed I have issues with trust when I feel vulnerable, but It's never been discussed openly. I guess telling her that might open up the discussion to other things [like this]. Thank-you.

thelostone: I've been with my therapist for about 9 months now. Seems like a long time? I know, I should trust her by now, at least I think so, but I don't. Shes helped me through a lot, what with the psychosis and the bipolar, but some issues I just can't talk about. It's too hard. Sometimes in the past she hasn't believed what I tell her at first, so I don't know how anything I say will be recieved. And yes, my dreams I always recollect vivdly. Honestly, I don't know what to believe at this point, whether it's a flashback or a representation of my feelings. Thank-you.

jinnyann: I think writing it down is a great idea. I have a notepad near my bed. But it certaintly does follow me the whole day. I need to feel safe. I've hated my room for many years, and I never knew why, and still don't, I just don't feel safe there no matter how safe I try to know I am. I appreciate you calling me brave. I don't feel brave. I feel worthless. Thank-you.

Malachite: I don't know what to think. It could very possibly be a representation of how I'm feeling, whether it's vulnerability or something else. It's just so scary. I appreciate your point of view and find it helpful, whatever these dreams mean. Thank-you.

I have an appointment with my T tommorow, so lets see how it goes, if I decide to tell her. Sorry about my compulsive thanking habit.

[oh man, I feel sooooo self-concious and I feel like I am such an idiot who doesn't deserve any kind of help from anyone.... sorry, I'm so sorry.]