bigtex1, Hello welcome I am 38yrs old with a 4 1/2 yr old son and 18 month old daughter. I to need to play. I do love to though. I suffer from PTSD memories of my very abusive childhood. I just know that I never want my kids to experience a bad childhood. So that means I need to put aside my feelings and do whats right for them. I am sure you do this. But it is so hard when you are not feeling well. Hugs!