Thanks everyone. =)

There's no one I can really talk to...If I tell my school counselor...I don't want my parents to know, and it's probably likely that if I tell my counselor she'll tell my parents. I have a hard time talking to people about myself, and when I do I tend to unconsciously alter what I say according to what I feel that the other person would want to hear... I did that with my counselor and my mother too, but even if I don't want to do it, somehow I can't control it. It just kind of happens...The thing is, I know my parents care for me, but I just can't believe it is love...I suppose I'm a cynic, but I don't think anyone in my family has ever grown up with love. They don't seem real to me either...so it's hard to get close to them to talk and trust them. It's the same with other people too...although I'm more comfortable talking through writing. =)

I'm trying to gather up the courage to tell my school counselor though...but it's hard...