I believe you, Saphael, that it can be very hard to get close to people and trust them to really listen and then be kind. Not everyone is cold or rejecting. You do need to find someone to trust because abandoning yourself is not a good idea. You will need yourself later on. When a person is young its so hard to think anything can be different or change for the better, but change does happen all the time and you won't have to feel like your parents run your life forever. It's hard to talk to the school counselor,but give it a try, you need some help.

Susanna Mariah