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You want to start throwing up? If you haven't yet, you might want to consider this.... Throwing up will kill you, a slow horrid death. I have been doing it for so long that it is automatic which means "No hands mom". I have trouble breathing sometimes and swallowing sometimes. I have medical problems that will probably never go away. I live in constant fear that throat cancer is in my future at some point. I have been trying to stop forever.

I didn't start to be thin or pretty. I don't even remember starting but I do know that I have always wanted to completely disappear.

Throwing up knocks your electrolytes to hell and that can cause a heart attack and stroke. Your kidneys and liver can fail. Throwing up makes your body swell up and even if you lose weight, your face looks fatter.

So, if you want to continue, go ahead, but don't do it uninformed. You have a choice.