Self esteem is always a hard one, no matter the complaments people give ect its hard to feel it. When you've growen up constantly denegrated, put down & belittled it becomes internalised & no positive afermation seems to overcome it. Complaments can even seem sarcastic or just to humer one, the poor self image ingranes itself to such a degree little but therapy can shake it. I know only to well your pain & wish you the best to overcome it all.