(((((((((((((((((( everyone ))))))))))))))))))))

Thanks for your thoughts. It gave me a lot to think about.

I think ((((((((((sunrise ))))))))))))) is right - he was putting his need to talk about the hugs above my need to have that one session to just "be". And that wouldn't have been a hard thing for him to give me. My therapy IS about him challenging me, etc., but it's also about our relationship and feeling safe, so to have a session like that wouldn't be that out of the ordinary.

We did exchange brief e-mails last night. I e-mailed him about how I was feeling because I felt like I was taking it out on my kids, which I obviously don't want to do. He said it was very clear in session and in e-mail that my feelings were hurt and that he was sorry - and he said he was sorry that the end of the session ruined it for me, when I had been very clear what my expectations were for the session.

I guess I will just sit with this now until Friday. I do appreciate that he apologized, but I knew he would apologize. It makes me really sad to feel so disconnected from him and angry at him. And although this will probably turn into one of those situations that I can look back at and think "wow, that rupture/repair really moved my therapy along" it just feels really crappy right now.