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Originally Posted by earthmama
he wanted to talk about the hugs. He asked how they feel to me. I thought that would be it, but he kept talking and talking, words words words words. I told him he was TALKING TOO MUCH and I wasn't even following him.
I told him he didn't have to hug me, it's fine. He asked where that came from. I told him his words were overwhelming me, and it's just not that big of a deal.
He brought up the ASSHOLE MINISTER who provided "counseling" for me in high school and who ended up taking me to his apartment (when we were supposed to be going out for ice cream) and to his bed.
He said he wanted to keep talking about the hugs because of that - because I probably felt safe then and I wasn't safe and because he wants to be sure I feel safe now.
I just needed to feel safe and cared for. I was sitting there feeling safe and he took it away from me.
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Hi EM, he did wait until the end of the session so he didn't take the whole session away? Sounds like he might have been exploring why you haven't been feeling safe and that he wants to help you feel safe away from him?
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Originally Posted by earthmama
It makes me really sad to feel so disconnected from him and angry at him.
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I know that I have mentioned this before but I am still puzzled by this being angry with someone and it making you feel disconnected? I guess maybe because this feeling of genuine connectedness is new so, therefore, fragile?