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Originally Posted by missboots
bigtex1, Hello welcome I am 38yrs old with a 4 1/2 yr old son and 18 month old daughter. I to need to play. I do love to though. I suffer from PTSD memories of my very abusive childhood. I just know that I never want my kids to experience a bad childhood. So that means I need to put aside my feelings and do whats right for them. I am sure you do this. But it is so hard when you are not feeling well. Hugs!
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My wife will tell you that she experiences the bad side of me , but my daughter seldom does. The only time she sees it is when the depression hits the sad side. It can come out either sad or angry and irritable. My daughter can see it when I am sad. I worry that she will become an enabler because when that happens she wants to fix me. She wants to love on me.
I am a big " routine " person. During the week I have my routine of getting up, shower, dress, take meds. The weekends get here and the routine is usually gone and I will miss the meds sometimes. If I miss one / two days the meds are gone from my system. And I am back to being a sad sack or a royal ahole. I hate that feeling. My family deserves better.