((( melmel15 ))) you are a super person with great potential. By using your friends and family to gain approval it is an up hill battle and you may not like it when you get to the top.
Do things that bring you a feeling of accomplishment and success. That is the most important thing. Once you become proficient in what you like to do your friends and family might actually find out who you are and like you for being you.

And remember above all else....you are not useless.