that is a lot to deal with Freewill, somethings are so hard and appear to make no sense.. just believe in the goodness that is still around you even tho these tragedies occur.. fight to have faith and will within in you and make life be the kind of place you want it to be... what is happening now is so sad... focus on the positive as much as you can tho it is very hard at times.. you can manifest the good by concentrating on the truth of its presence.. best wishes always..