I feel so tired. I have been moderately-severe depressed for three months and can't seem to lift from the fog. My son no longer receives his social security payment since he has turned nineteen years old and that is a big stressor. I have been to the DHHR and applied for a medical card for him but they want me to go to social security office and apply for disability then come back. He is bipolar and has trouble in high school and I don't know if he is going to graduate or not.

This is a fine plan but I have no energy and am calling it a good day when I feed my son and I and the horse, dog and cats. Yesterday I did a load of laundry and a load of dishes and that was an improvement in my functioning.

I am really worried about my finances. I am in the donut hole with my pharmacy insurance so I have to pay 100% of med costs and I don't think I can afford all my meds and keep us fed.

I was thinking about returning to an outpatient therapy group. I like my individual therapist and would like to see her more often but she is treating me pro bono so I don't feel comfortable asking to see her more.

It would cost me about $5 per day to drive into town for the group therapy. I don't know if I can afford the gasoline.

Life really sucks lately and I am doing my best to make a good life for my son and me but I am hurting right now.

Please tell me there is hope things will get better.

One thing nice that happened to me this week is my son missed the school bus and I drove him and got biscuits on the way and he told me he appreciated me. This is a big improvement from the defiant son he was a year ago.