Hopefully you're right... I can't take things slow and easy, because they cause me distress and anxiety (sometimes even panic attacks when things that were originally meant to last 30 seconds or less last 2+ minutes). Just thinking about being on the move for what might be months or even years is a thought I find myself pushing away constantly, and even more so now, that I HAVE to do well on my academic progress so I can go back to my old college.

Hopefully, if I never hide anything, and keep finding ways of remembering what to say and what to ask professionals, it will all pass by faster. And hopefully, the days I feel frustrated with myself for thinking that I need help, I'll have someone to slap me out of my state of doubt... But sadly, those days haven't come yet, so I'm stuck with fighting myself over how my next step should be.