I'm SO useless :sobbing:

I'm so so lonely and it hurts physically so much. But, I can't do anything about it. I'm meant to be volunteering at a youth program and I just can't get around to phoning them to ask when I'm meant to be doing what. I applied for a job recently and it's a really good job and a really good chance for me to get out of this downward spiral of depression I'm in. But I'm too scared to answer the phone unless I know who it is. The phone just rang and I just left it to go onto answer machine and I just listened to the message and it was the company I applied to asking me to phone them back, so there's a possibility I may have an interview? But I just can't do it! I can't phone her back! And what happens if it is an interview, I can't handle them, I won't get it anyway 'cause I'll either end up canceling it (that's if I phone back) or I'll be a mess and ruin it.

:sobbing: oh I'm so useless, how have I got myself into this mess. I can't cope with everything anymore and this social anxiety is jut making everything worse!

Molly