((((((((((((((((((((((((jinnyann)))))))))))))))))))))))))) Everyone needs to feel love and caring. It sounds like he was someone who was important in your life and he gave you attention which you craved and were denied by your family. I imagine it was very frightening to be alone, at night when you left your parents. I can understand going to a familiar place. I am just so sorry any of it happened. Please know that I don't judge you at all.

BB