Thank you for your reply. I know that we all have experienced loss in our lives and it is never easy. It's just so hard to let her go, even though I know it's what she wanted. She would say, "don't think of it as me being dead, think of it as me being in heaven singing with the angels". She was a person with a lot of faith, but even with that, the struggles she went through overwelmed her in the end. Her husband told me that he had stopped her 4 times in the past three years. This time she was alone and there was no one there to stop her. Thank you again for taking the time to reply. It means alot... jan