I have no idea why, but today I've just started feeling worse and worse as the day went on. The morning was not great, but tolerable and now I just feel like crap. I find myself really wanting to talk to T, but about what, I don't know. I was just there yesterday and I go back again Friday. I am trying not to e-mail him because I've been e-mailing him a lot lately. He said I can e-mail/call anytime, but I don't know what I want to talk to him about. It's like I just have this block and Friday seems far away.