I saw my therapist today and she thought it might be a good idea if I started outpatient therapy. I am going to see how much my budget will allow me to drive into town.

The anniversary of the day I killed my boyfriend (in self defense) is Sept 19. This is the first year in nine years that I have been more focused on problems of the present that the tragedy nine years ago. I have few flashbacks so some things are better. I am trying to hold strong and be a good mother but I am having multiple stressors, some of which I didn't even mention.

I hope things get better. I am so tired of it all.