We scheduled a 90 minute session for tomorrow. I'm not used to anger, and I feel like it's going to take a while to accept how I feel and to work through it with him. I've used some really crappy "coping mechanisms" this week, and there's probably some processing to do around that too.

In my history, I was certainly never allowed to feel anger with anyone - and, in fact, even in my current situation with H it is most defnitely not acceptable. T left me a message telling me that my feelings were hurt, and that made me angry, and that's okay, and we'll work through it together, and he's not going to get mad at me, leave me, refer me, etc.

In a lot of ways, feeling angry at someone that I care about is THE scariest feeling I can have. So this has been a LONG week.

I really appreciate everyone's support around this.