((((((((((freewill)))))))))))))

Not strange to ask for comfort or support - ever!

I'm sorry this happened. I think you need to tell your T about this, and see if you can think up SAFE activities you could do to "have a life".

Give the plants away. People love plants, especially when they're cheap. You could have a "yard sale" of sorts. Or donate them to your neighbours. Anyone who wants them.