(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((cantstopcrying)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry you are struggling so much right now. There really is no "worse" or less pain. Please try not to add to your negative thoughts from the depression to feeling selfish. It just isn't true.

I know how overwhelming such big subjects as money can be. Especially when it never seems you have enough. Maybe when you feel yourself sinking into these negative thoughts you can consiciously try and change them to all your postive points. I know that is so hard but you are recognizing that you are turning things negative so maybe you can make this change.

I hope this pattern at work lessens and your pain becomes more tolerable. I am glad you reached out here.

BB