I do hope you go to therapy tomorrow.

I am just now reading this thread, and am concerned about your reactions from the last session.

You blame your T for "ruining" your safe feeling, yet you also said that what he mentioned was worked through long ago. If so, why did you have such a violent reaction? I think he did well to try and help you realize that what you were saying (feeling safe) was not what you were really feeling. The subject of the hugs probably needs more processing,imo.

I'm sorry you have felt such miserable feelings this week. Not feeling comfortable with your T is such a bad place to be. It is part of the process of therapy at times.

Not that you or he has done anything wrong, mind you. But...you're going to a session to just sit and color on the floor isn't really therapy. I support his trying to have a therapeutic time with you, but am sorry that it didn't work out. That isn't what you wanted, as you said. I hope in the future you will be able to discuss your feelings and not just state them and ignore the gorilla in the room. That's not what the T is there for. It would have been best if you had been able to talk about the actual need and reasons and outcomes from needing a break from the recent therapy sessions.