Hmm... You've been through quite a bit there, Junerain... It gives me peace that, at the end of your life story, you're better than ever before, and also making up for lost time. I can only hope, wish, and pray that your life keeps improving to the point where happiness lies in every corner.

Thanks for the story you gave me. I accept it as an example (finally) of what I was looking for to open my eyes a bit more. I still have to admit, I feel like nothing's wrong with me and that I'm just faking it all, when my feelings pass and I forget how I felt. Other thoughts that cross my mind constantly entwine with that one, making it worse... How will others know I'm saying the truth, if there's nothing visible that can show them I am NOT ok? How can I assure myself they won't shrug me aside and laugh at me for trying to better myself if I have nothing to prove that I AM suffering? And, more importantly... How can I believe myself, if two days after whatever abnormality that happens to me dispapears and I feel like it never happened, like if it was some dream I had? I can't regain the motivation I have during my times of distress, and when I regain my composure and tranquility, I continue living my life forgetting about all those thoughts and feelings... I don't feel happiness, sadness, embarrassment, just hate and (to some extenct) fear. How can I prove this?

... Am I lying to myself just to feel different, or am I really sick? The feeling of everything going slow-motion, or everything moving away from me too fast are real... But is that it? If I don't follow up with my sessions, will I become my own worst enemy in the future? How can I KNOW if I'm in danger, or I can live with how I am now without long-term effects in my life?...

I just can't stop these questions from rushing into my head, and as I try to find answers, or create one that I can accept, I find even more questions than those I have taken care off...
No ending in sight...