I'm sorry you had such a difficult thing happen to you. I know you wish it would never happen again. Kendyll, it means that there is just issues that still need help. If it were Jon you would be patient with him, you really need to be patient with yourself the same way. The harder you try to fight such stuff off the more likely it will happen again. How about just forgive yourself, if you feel you need to, and move on past this. Hugs,

Leslie and Her Pixies