Okay, so I was writing this in 1st period at about 9am, and now it's 2:30..so yeah..

I'd been pondering some things..just a whole bunch of unanswered questions..

Why is it so much easier to take out all the hatred and hurt on my body? Why is it so much harder to show how I really feel? Why can't I just let it all go for once, and let the tears stream down my face? What has happened in the past 5 years that I can stop the urge to cry and relieve some pain, better than hurting my body and let these feelings wait for another day, just as it starts again? Ugh..nevermind..

One other thing is, the next time I start to ask myself why I'd want to quit, the first question should be why NOT? Seems the easier way around..

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