I get like that too sometimes. It's horrible. It sounds like real bad depression. Are you keeping up with your meds? Seeing a T? What about your family? Can they help at all?

I don't know how old you are, and I'm in the same situation - not attached, no kids, and my biological clock is ticking. I do get jealous and envious, especially of my brother and his family, who seems to have things so easy. Then I'd feel bad for feeling that. Some people are so lucky, and, well, there are people who are not.

Religion does come into play too. I've wondered what I've done wrong. Why He doesn't love me. Am I really 'bad' like the little 'devil' (hence my avator)?

You're not alone in this. Many people have felt like you at some point.

If it's any consolation, you have us, and we have you who is a wonderful person. We have this site, we have each other. You can PM me anytime.

Taking meds and going for therapy can help make you feel better.

Please take care. (((((((((((((GG)))))))))))))))))