That's hard and I'm sorry you went through that. I struggled with accepting my diagnosis as well and even now sometimes will deny it to myself and t. I think it's a hard diagnosis to accept for so many reasons. My biggest reason was because if I accepted that I had DID, I had to accept that things happened to cause that and I couldn't do that. I still struggle with that concept but T has helped me so much with that. I'm sorry you did not have good support at that time. It sounds like your current T is much better at accepting where you are right now. I hope things will get better for you.