(((sabby))) - thanks for reading.

i don't know.... i didn't tell him i post on that site, i just told i him i read some things from there. it's basically the finnish equivalent of psych central, and has a few different forums, one is dedicated to "journals" though. and when he told me he had found my journal, i had stopped writing in it.. but the stuff i had written there i most certainly did not want him to find (that i had feelings for someone else as well) - and dealing with that was enough stress (for me)

and now he has to bring it up again. dang.

in a way i'm flattered that he finds my mind interesting - i don't think i ever thought of it that way though did say (several times) he was interested in whatever goes through my head... but it never fully sinks in.

if only i had said things in a more mature way! oh well... better start explaining that those things don't matter anymore... only i don't want to read that e-mail anymore, i'm so ashamed i'm glad he didn't call me - hahaha i would've hung up.

maybe back in april, and maybe i still do, wanted to know why his friends didn't greet me. i remember that sometime in may, i made a plan of what i would say, and ask him about it. but i never did, and eventually i got over it as i learned that the ones who do not greet me aren't really friends, but just acquaintances.

crap. i don't want to read it again.