(((((((((((( katie )))))))))))))
I know this feels like a huge mess right now. But I know from past experience that the best way around it is to go through it hon. Face it, talk about, deal with it and move on from there. Sounds like your b/f is a pretty understanding guy. Hopefully dealing with this will open both your eyes to some things that can really work to your advantage and bring you closer together! I sure hope so

sabby