(((((((((((((((WW)))))))))))))))

I can't say that I understand what it's like to dissociate so the only thing I have to offer is care, good thoughts, and prayers that you find easier times. I'm sorry you're having a rough spell. I can, however, from my own experience say that trying to be perfect only drove me mad. You are perfect just the way you are. I understand the need you feel. just remember that you don't need to do anything special to be special to us. Take care.

Ry