is it possible to need to be needed by people?
like, if someone is having issues,id spend all my energy on them, and then when they get better i feel abandoned, and idk. i dont want any of my friends to stay stuck in a rut. but i dont know how to stop feeling like im unwanted and uneeded after peoples lives get better some. i cant just sit around and enjoy my teenage life, i have to get out and help eveyrone out and do it to the best of my ability. or im useless and pathetic and horrible. i cant cope with not being able to help. but if there is noone who im friends with who needs it, yes im happy for them, but i miss being needed.
its especially bad when someonegets better because of someone else... an i just feel like. well i ducked that up. they wont wanna no me anymore because ive done all that needs doing and they have (insert person here)
dont even know wether this makes sense to anyone. but im sick of it. i want to be able to accept that its ok to enjoy my life and live for me, rather than tryingto fix everything. and if i cant or if it gets fixed, i feel abandoned and useless.
anyone get it?