im starting to look after myself now actually. before i didnt. i didnt do as well in my exams as a result.
but ever since starting to take care of myself, and not letting the load get on top of me, i feel REALLY guilty. like i should be focussing on someone else. even if there isnt anyone else.
i partially blame my issues with socialising really. ive never been what you would call great at making friends. in fact i moved schools because the entirety of the previous one hated my guts. i dont know why.
but ugh. why cant i just get on with people and not assume that as soon as i stop giving my whole life to their getting better they will kick off and say baibai.
iono