I'm glad to hear that you're trying to take better care of yourself. I'm still learning myself. I totally relate to the being socialized to never think about yourself&feeling that EVERYONE hates you. I still don't do well with the EVERYONE HATES ME thing. I don't have many friends&the ones that I'm closest to don't even live in the same state as me. I have one friend here in the Portland area that I e-mail to on a pretty much daily basis, but we don't see each other face to face very often. She has mental problems too-though they're different from mine. I'll have to check in more often on this web site-I didn't think anyone was reading my posts to the forums. I found out today that 2 moderators replied to me& I tried to reply but couldn't figure out how to do it. 
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Originally Posted by selfy
im starting to look after myself now actually. before i didnt. i didnt do as well in my exams as a result.
but ever since starting to take care of myself, and not letting the load get on top of me, i feel REALLY guilty. like i should be focussing on someone else. even if there isnt anyone else.
i partially blame my issues with socialising really. ive never been what you would call great at making friends. in fact i moved schools because the entirety of the previous one hated my guts. i dont know why.
but ugh. why cant i just get on with people and not assume that as soon as i stop giving my whole life to their getting better they will kick off and say baibai.
iono
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I am a 39 year old female that is diagnosed with bipolar disorder,anxiety disorder and post traumatic stress syndome. I'm on disability and often have no one to talk to when I'm not feeling so good. So please contact me if you'd like to talk or share or vent. I'm listening!
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