an alter what? The person named Malady says she lives in the abys in my mind or soul and i can see her if I look- so I believe we have met and Im not trying to confuse anyone Im referring to myself and my oewn experience and had some idea that it is permissable to "post " such thoughts publicly. I do beg everyones pardon for the intrusion- and kindly do not live within my self. [color:blue] [/color]