I just have to share this with people who might understand!

A while back, I painted a box to leave with T. He is always telling me to imagine a container to put my overwhelming feelings, etc. in, so I painted this really pretty box with mandalas and he keeps it in his office. The whole thing was a huge deal at the time that I brought it in (ha! like everything is for me when it comes to T!). It is on his desk, and it means a lot to me that it is there with him. It makes me feel like he is taking care of me when I'm not with him, and like a little piece of me is there with him all the time.

WELL! Today, when I went in for my session, there was this HUGE BOX sitting on his desk. Like a man's shoe box. Someone had covered it in brown paper and written all of these words on it like "serenity" and "hope" and drawn clouds and hearts and stuff on it. I said "someone else has a box" and he said "yes". This box is HUGE (mine is small) and sitting RIGHT BY HIS COMPUTER! The most immature, jealous, young part of me was seething. I am a grown up - I knew my feelings were totally unreasonable, but.... So, I told him that I was jealous because it was right by him and mine was farther way, and that I felt like he liked The Box Person more than me.

He pointed out that my box was sitting with his personal things - his little sand tray, and some little animal figurines he has - sort of nestled in there - while hers was kind of tossed on some files. Well, okay. And he said mine was the catalyst for hers. Whatever.

I did kind of get over it. But towards the end of the session, T reminded me I could put my feelings in my box, and I told him I was going to put my bad feelings in HER box and when she went to put things in there it would be FULL! T laughed and laughed and laughed at my immature comment. I told him I knew I was being mean, and he said "yeah, but you're funny!"

So! Now my box can be filled up with my loving feelings for T, and I'll throw all the bad, scary stuff in her box. I actually did hate putting bad stuff in my box, because I really do like the box. Perfect!!!