Hi... I wanted to get some opinions, if you don't mind.

My dad, who I was extremely close with, died unexpectedly 12 days ago. The phone call was sort of traumatic, as my sister told me the news and then her ex-husband got on the phone and I thought it was my dad's voice-- even though I had already learned he died. I didn't understand what was going on; the whole world became unreal.

Anyway, the next couple days were a whirlwind, going back to NY (I live in Philly), the funeral, etc. Then I came back to Philly and went back to doctoral school and work.

Today I came home from work and it was 5 pm. My H normally gets home at around 4:45 pm, but it was raining really hard. I thought maybe it was taking longer so I called his cell phone twice-- no answer. I immediately began to panic, thinking something happened and he was dead. Finally, on the third attempt to call, he answered his phone and said he was at the store (he forgot to tell me he was going, or maybe he did and I did not absorb the information). His phone had accidentally been on silent, that's why he hadn't answered.

So he came home and I couldn't get out of this state of horrible anxiety. I kept saying, "I know you are here, but I am scared that something is going to happen."

I became extremely tired and then went to lie in bed. I feel asleep for about an hour and had a terrible dream that a doctor told me that H was going to die-- and in the dream, H didn't care that he was going to die.

Now it's is 6:14 AM and I have only slept one hour because I'm afraid to go back to sleep and have another bad dream. The other night I dreamt about my dad and it wasn't a bad dream, necessarily, but I don't even want to dream about him because I know it isn't real and I'll never see him again.

Is this normal grief response, or something more than that?