Carrie,

I've been sitting here staring at your words. I would tell you to talk to your T about yours too (in fact, I think I probably did tell you that, didn't I?) It's easier to give advice than to take it though. We'll see. <font color=blue> she says as she throws her hands in front of her face and peeks out from between the fingers </font color=blue> I'll see him again on Wednesday - four weeks since the last time I saw him. It is entirely possible that that has something to do with it too. Yesterday he answered the e-mail that I had sent him about two weeks ago, and that was probably why I didn't SI yesterday. Just before getting his e-mail I was thinking about making some more scratches and also sending him another e-mail declaring myself mad at him, which would be a first (for me to admit to being mad) and he would probably have thought it was great.

Another possibility is that I might have been hypomanic this week. That was what it turned out to be the last time I thought I was doing great and was full of brilliant ideas (that I couldn't quite pin down and which turned out to be a bunch of junk when I tried to remember them later). And I'm going to be exposed to shopping tomorrow too (going to a fiber festival) - uh oh. I don't have money, but I have a credit card.

<font color=purple>"The real problem of mental life is not why some people become insane, but rather why most avoid insanity." -Erich Fromm</font color=purple>