What will those people do when they realize that you are hurt and cannot respond in any short amount of time the way they expect you to? That is the question that is always in my mind, and why I do not respond well to claims that someone cares. I do not trust those claims and do not think anyone will accept that I react that way. I anticipate that their "love" will soon turn to hate when I cannot respond "correctly".



It is pretty obvious to me where these feelings come from. Actual experience as a child, when love was required of me and if I did not give it right away, it changed to an attack.