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SweetSunshine · Sep 13, 2008, 10:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

Thanks Roz and Girls. (((( HUGS TO YOU BOTH ))))

I am hanging in there. I think now that I know what type of time frame we're looking at, I can better prerpare myself.

My mother and I had hope that the radiation was going to buy her five years. (that was mentioned as a possible outcome of the treatment)

Typical how I'm always blindsided when I let myself have hope, yet I continue to set myself up. Idiot.

((((((((( Orange ))))))))))) Your not an idiot for having hope. If you are , welll then so have many of us when we've been in similar situations. And thats just not possible now is it? Its not wrong to not want to give up on the ones we love and care about. I cant count the numerous times I have done what your doing with my mom. I loved her, I didnt want anything to happen to her that would cause everyone to lose her. And I know thats how your feeling also. Its not selfish. Its just because we know how painful it can be and how much we will miss them. So know that its ok to have hope. Its ok to want to her to feel better. Its ok to want to have her around longer.Its not ok for you to beat yourself up for having these feelings . She wouldnt want you to do that, neither do any of us here want to see you do that. We are here for you . Keep talking. Keep letting your feelings out hon. But be gentle with yourself. Just like you would be with any of us here.