phil, when i was first put to hospital for psychosis they made me take some psychological tests (including the rorschach inkblot test) which measured whether my "illness" had affected my intelligence and learning abilities. i had been seeing hallucinations daily for two months, but had been hallucinating occasionally before that for maybe 3 or 4 months altogether. the psychologist said my intelligence was like before, above normal.

have you been to hospital? did they make you take these tests? even if you have taken them, remember that it still takes months to recover from psychosis. i recently had a psychotic episode and my pdoc advised me to stay out of school until february 2009.

so basically what i'm saying is don't be too hard on yourself. also i checked your profile, i'm not sure if it's the right age, but if it is, you seem very smart for a 14 year old. back when i was 14, i wanted all my male classmates dead because they were so stupid. hahahahah. ok. you're also making research of your "illness" (dang i dislike that word) and that is a very good thing.

scattered thoughts but... best of luck to you phil.