T said today that this a part of healing. He said I'm not surrendering to it. I need to let it flow. I'm still trying to hold it in. He said if I could cry for 3 weeks without stopping I would feel much better. As a child you have to leave your body to survive, but you don't have to do that now. Tell people you trust how your feeling and let it out. I told him I can't do that. I'm uncomfortable showing my feelings. Everyone has always seen me with a smile on my face, now all of a sudden here I am flooding with tears. I feel I need to explain.