Hey sounds as if you are doing alright! You probably aren't mentally ill and just need someone to talk to. An hour or two a week doesn't mean you are a total mess, it just means you are like most people, you do better when you have those occasional questions and down days, if you have someone to talk to.

Life never came with an instruction manual, or maybe it did I just didn't get a copy. Nothing wrong with getting an opinion outside your own.

I do take notes with me quite often, so I don't forget what is on my mind.

You say you are not getting much out of it. It was good for my anxiety and reflecting a positive self image onto me. But beyond that I think my experiences have been pretty lame to downright wacky and out of line once I got past the point of real emotional stress and into normalcy and started seeking more for myself. Then you will probably get more out of your favorite self-help books and going down your own path. Just be careful, the T's I've run into make quick assumptions about peoples conditions. Meaning, they can do more harm than good if they are do not "get who you are" and treating you for things they assume you have. The mirror they hold up for you has to be a better version of yourself, not worse. And also make sure they have a lifestyle you would hope to achieve. No sense in going to someone who has the same weak spots if you are trying to overcome them.

All the best.