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no need for apologies, glad the community team could increase the meds

there comes a time when experiencing the anger is unavoidable & it really is better if you can work it through before the kids come home, although it would be better still if you could be in a safe place while you go through this, being home alone is not ideal
for that reason, we would say please don't avoid chat if you need help
PM one of us to make a private room if you don't feel comfortable in the bigger chats & keep the phone numbers for those assistance lines somewhere where you will see them

all best wishes, you are a strong woman, you will get through this, keep in touch