booboo66,

I have been where you are...and it does not have to be that way. Your soul does not have to die.

kv's advice is good - contact your local women's center...if you PM me with your location, I can help you find it. They can help you through the legal maze to get a protection from abuse order, they can find you housing, they can help you get back on your feet. I know they can do this, because they did it for me.

It may not always be easy to get away from him...but it is so much better than letting him continue to abuse you.

Good luck...please don't give up.
*hugs*
mj